I woke up Sunday morning, turned on some music, and began to
get ready for church. (The music was Mehdi, Instrumental Heaven, Volume 7.) The
music was soft instrumental with piano and a latin beat. I always look at my
favorite picture of Jesus on my bathroom mirror while I get ready. I talk to
Jesus and sometimes hear His voice in my mind talking back to me. But today was
different. I listened to the music, looked at the portrait of Jesus and began
to dance.
It might have looked like shadow dancing to anyone else. But
to me it was real. God and I cha-cha’d back and forth. God twirled me around
and we began again. We spoke intimately of life’s meaning, my concerns and of
God’s love for me. We danced, song after song. I cried, song after song,
wondering if I’d ever get my makeup on.
Then, some beautiful piano music played and I realized it
was God tinkling the ivories, just for me. I cried all the more. I was thankful
no male voice was on this CD. I couldn’t bear the beauty of hearing God’s
voice. Just thinking of it makes me tremble.
God sensed all my thoughts. I told him of my problems with
bipolar disorder, wondering if I’d make it back to Him. Then God’s gentle voice
came very clear, “It’s only for this life” along with some sage advice, “Just
take it one day at a time” and “I will help you.” Somehow hearing it from God
made the truth resonate in my soul. I believed Him, really believed Him.
I heard a Christian song later that day that said I (God) “may
let you bend but I won’t let you break.” I immediately thought of doing the “dip”
dance move with God and of trials. He bends us back to the point of being
unsure we can take it any longer. But God doesn’t let us fall. He lifts us up
and creates a beautiful dance move.
I believe we all can learn to dance with God in our lives.
Do we allow God to take the lead in our lives or do we struggle to take the
lead, not seeking God’s will? Are we in sync with God, in fluid movement or all
we all “left feet”?
God is very real to me. So is His love. Open yourself to feel the love
of God today. Take some time alone, ponder and talk to God. You might be surprised. God loves you deeply and wants you to know how much He loves you.
P.S. What’s really cool is that I had this experience on
11/11/12. 11 is my favorite number, 11:11 is my favorite time and 11/11 is my
favorite day. When I see any of these, I think of God and of how much I love
Him. I believe I had this experience on 11/11 because God wants to show His
love for me. There go the tears again. This glimpse of God’s love has empowered
me to face life with greater strength. I look forward to a real
embrace and dancing the cha-cha when I see God at last.
